yesterday was spent a my cousin's funeral
on tuesday, after he was transferred back into the ICU,
the doctors called and said that "there was no hope"
he was already on life support and couldn't breathe on his own

and on wednesday, at 1.45 am
i got a call from my mum saying he'd passed on

in fact, he's on the front page of today's berita harian newspaper

i was never really close to this cousin
but looking at the people he left behind
his kids, his wife, his parents and siblings, crying...
the funeral was so heartbreaking
hmm

i don't deal well with death
don't know why

*and i need to study*

fina

sooo long since i've posted

updates*:

saturday; went syaz's house with diana to play games
am so in love with the latest need4speed
hahah
and the steering wheel and brake and acceleration pedals
did u noe we had to break the law to gather a $1000 bounty in the game and then run away from the police?
hahah
i racked a bounty of over $25,000 (took a long time of running away)
not including the damage to state property (i crashed into busstops and gas stations and cars and trucks)
but i finally got caught. needless to say, my character was treated roughly; i got a smack in the head for my exploits in the game.
haha

anyways, after that, i finished packing for my cameron/melacca trip
cleaned my room
and waited till 2 in the morning to wake everyone up to leave
hmm how was the trip?

cameron was fine
went to a butterfly farm where they have all these insects pinned onto displays
so many beautiful butterflies up there: blue ulysses, bluebottle, blue jay...
and some psychedelic-ly coloured butterflies
felt kinda guilty about them butterflies dying tho

the food we ate:
satay
tom yam soup (yum yAm!)
strawberries! with cream! and ice-cream!!!

hahah
went down to melacca after two nights
alas, equatorial and the legacy were full, as was city bayview and everly (hmm, forgot about the renaissance)
so we stayed at a really old "the emperor hotel"

and we shopped! hahah
finally found a pair of jeans
not levis, not lee, just VJ
yup, i've never heard of it either hahah
but the lee and levis stores either didn't have the size or the cut i wanted


came back on thursday evening
have done nothing to study since then
i did bring notes on the trip
but i spent the time reading sci-fi books
hehe

anyways, should start studying. i should, i should
guess i'll have breakfast/lunch first

happy brunch!! =)

fina

okay, so i'm writing this now with tears in my eyes
no, nothing bad happened to me
i was just watching ekaterina gordeeva and sergei grinkov skate together
on youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBu7Ex7RiMM
watched a whole lot of their other performances yesterday
(and cried some more)
but this is still my fav
the first one i ever saw

they were the best pairs skaters ever
paired together in 1982 when she was 11 and he 15
were world champions at their first try in 1986
married in 1991
and so in love
and he died in 1995
such a sad story

she has a book called "my sergei: a love story"
it had pictures of them with their daughter, really sad cos it felt more real that way
i was crying when i read the introduction
had to continue at home or the people on the mrt would think i was loony
haha


anyways,
the way they skate makes you really believe that they're in love
such harmony and understanding in their moves
even before i knew they were married that first time i saw them skate,
i was so in love with their apparent love
*sighs*
u really should watch the video on youtube
the song they skate to is perfect for them

and in the last part of the video,
scott hamilton (i think) says:
you see them together on or off the ice,
and all you want is for them to live happily ever after

truer words were never spoken
but alas, he died of a heart attack in his prime at 28
*tear*

now ekaterina (or katia) is married to another skater
former world champion ilia kulik
i've seen him skate before, really masterful and skilled
but when they duet on the ice, it's not the same
not the same harmony
granted, he is a singles skater and so not trained to be a pairs skater

when i first found out that she had re-married,
i felt strangely betrayed
like "how could she forget sergei, blah blah blah"
but if she's happy with a guy 6 years her junior,
then i'm happy for her
and she did look happy and content with her new husband,
and daughters daria (w/ sergei) and elizaveta (w/ ilia)

(though i still stubbornly feel that the pair she made with sergei
was still the most amazing and inspiring pair ever)

just watch the video, and you'll know how i feel
=)

fina