it's 2.30 now, but i cannot fall asleep
i've just been so distressed that i've been crying and crying
all because i read about what mrs. claudine tan is going to do to us next year

if we don't get a C grade or above for our holiday assignment, we won't be allowed to enter lit tutorials

gosh
i've been getting an average of d/e grade for lit, with a few Cs somewhere
and it got me thinking: how am i going to make it through this crucial year of jc
if i won't be allowed into tutorials to learn?

especially since the teachers i have seem so determined not to help us
yes, you teach us the content, but how about teaching us how to pass?
teachers are there supposedly to help you through your studies
and yet here they are threatening not to teach us if we make mistakes in our work

never before have i felt so hopeless going into a new school year
even in secondary school, where there are way more subjects to take than in jc, i've never felt so hopeless

now i'm beginning to think i'm not cut out for school at all
no, not even poly
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know

that claudine tan is such an abominable, hateful person
she's not a teacher, no matter what her job title