i have to say, i love the hospital
i mean, of course it's not fun when you're there for a really serious reason
but if you're there for a small reason compared to all the other things you go to the hospital for,
it's really quite fun

it was like a mini-holiday for me
missing school for two days,
and staying there for two nights more than i had originally planned

most things i need when i go on a holiday were there;
there was a kopitiam, and a really posh cafeteria on the eighth storey (where all the doctors eat)
and there was a book store(albeit a medical one) and a specs store
and two 7- elevens (one selling veggies and stuff)
and there was delifrance and polar

and the highlight of it all were the two stalls selling bags and one selling jewellery
it was almost like a shopping centre!

and the hospital itself!
it was so like a hotel
my father's room was a private one (seeing that it was a momentous occasion since my immediate family members are rarely admitted into the hospital)
and there was the air-condition
and even room-service!
you gotta love this place!

the nurses are great
they didn't scold me when they caught me playing in the wheelchair
or on my father's bed (the bed can move up and down on its own!)

and there was even cable tv
i think i'm gonna miss espn the most
(by the way, i watched the match between the perth wildcats and the brisbane bullets, and i gotta admit, i kinda haf a tiny crush on the captain of the wildcats)(hee hee)

haiz
now it's back to school
gotta face the music
wish me luck
hehehe

fin

yesterday i had a meltdown...
over what? over the ironing board!!
i was ironing the curtains when i ironed my finger
then i burst out in tears, stalked out, and vowed never to iron again (impossible, though)
i think that was the third or more time this year i ironed myself
(accidentally, of course)
i guess i'm just cursed
haix...
pity my (future) husband...
nobody's gonna iron his clothes for him...haha

anyway, tomorrow is raya!!!
yeay!!! finally i can eat in broad daylight!!!
hahaha
but i am cutting down on food

my house looks only a quarter ready
and i've got no kueh raya so far
none at all
zilch; nada, zero, kosong...
no matter
i guess that means other people will have to diet too
hahah:)

i've just finished clearing up my room
i'm tired
and it's only about 3 hours and 10 mins to buka
yeeaaaa!!!!

okay, i guess that's it
and, oh yeah,
HAPPY B-DAY TIPAH!!!

fin:)

three days of utter boredom
man
feels like so long since exams have ended
and for three days i've done nothing but lie around the house doing nothing all day except when people send food to the house
then i get up
take the food, thank them, and give them some of mine
haha

anyway, i'm in such a muddle
for days i've been thinking about the colour to paint my room
i've made more than a dozen examples of my room (done very simply using paint)
and still i've got nothing
haish

u noe, i even had time to make an almost exact picture of my hall
all using lines and dots and curves
and extra magnification on parts which i can't really see that well

haish
i'm thinking about my literature homework
i haven't handed it in
although i've completed it
and i'm really worried

and guess what?
i have to go for the champion thingie
with people i probably don't know
i think i was the only one to stand up to take the consent form
but the only reason for that was because i had to go study bio and needed to get outta there fast!
i hafta look for an excuse not to go
i can say i'm working
which would be true later in the month
i've had people ordering cakes from me
yay
becos i need money$

hahah
anyway, one tree hill is gonna start
gotta go
kinda miss school (imagine that!)
haha

bbye
feeena

i was really upset when i found out that racism still exists in singapore
i mean, how can these people-- living in such a big world full of different things and cultures and religions-- still be so narrow-minded?
what?
they think that narrow-mindedness is cool?
that showing the world how utterly ignorant and blind and deaf you are makes you famous and popular?

they're dead wrong
it made them notorious
and got them arrested

i was really incensed
it's so dangerous
for someone who lives in singapore
to have such thoughts of racism
singapore is supposed to be a peaceful
diverse country where so much emphasis is placed on being a multi-cultural society that can work and live together

is the kid ( yes, a 17-year old kid! ) blind?
how can he not see how precious this harmony that we have is?
how can he not see that there's no such thing as a bad race
or an inferior race?
that individuals are what they make of themselves?
generalising people is such a childish thing to do
doesn't he know that?

and now he's arrested
i do think, though,
that this poor kid should see a psychologist
he is a psycho
and such evil thoughts can't be very healthy for that kid
what will he be when he grows up?
who would want to hire a person who could disrupt the peace at a workplace?
someone should make him see that what he's doing is wrong
not just legally
but also morally

if not, he'll harbour a resentment for the people who put him in jail
and loathe whatever race he was attacking even more

haish...
i'm feeling drained
now all i feel for those people is pity
i pity them because their thinking made them blind to how beautiful this world is
how different doesn't mean bad
how much can be learnt from other races

poor, ignorant people
may God have mercy on their souls

finland__*

the hole i shat in

*groans*
so far i've had a shitty week
yup
shitted everyday
thank god not all of it was in school
but man
were those moments
so uncontrollable

hahah
well, first week of school after a short vacation break
i think i did fine
i did the homework that the teachers would check
and the one's that teachers don't...
well, we'll just leave it at that, won't we?
hahah

anyway
tomorrow we're going on a field trip
to the botanical gardens, to be exact
it'll be fun i think
and i'm gonna bring food
(when am i ever without food?)

ah... food...
another matter altogether
i can't stop eating
dunnoe why
it all started during the holidays
and continued through the school week
luckily puasa coming
if not i'd be about 20 pounds fatter next year
and that doesn't bode well for me, would it?

especially since i am satisfied with the way i am now
overly satisfied, if you must know
hahah
that's why i'm voluptuous
hahah
because of over satisfaction

i'd say i'm more dilligent this year
i'm actually starting to study
and doing a-maths!
although, i've been skipping all the hw for add-maths
through the year
so i guess i'm just making up for all that i missed
hahah

hopefully
my goals will all be achieved
by the time hari raya starts
(and i think you know what goal that is)

hahah
toots for now~

feeen-land__*

it's the weekend before school re-opens!!
OMG!!
hahah

such a short holiday
feels like just a weekend to me
and it's been one week already
hmm...
i wonder what i've been doing...

i sleep late everyday
and wake up late everyday
and then i do nothing except
maybe eat, tv and doing stuff on the comp

well, at least i've done a little homework
no matter how small it is
hey! i've improved!
that's better than june's record of only english homework done!
hahah

oh, hell
i haven't done nor handed in my history essay
and that just sucks
that means i have got to do it tonight
not tomorrow
wanna know why?

hahah
tomorrow is library day!
doing my homework at the library
where nothing can disturb or distract me
since i can't use the internet there
(thus explains the impossibility of me doing history there)
(i need the internet to search for info)

anyway
hari raya shopping has started early this year
can't believe that i've only bought baju kebaya
3 pairs, can you believe!

anyway
toots~ for now

long time no gaze

business; schmusiness

haiz
i'm lousy at baking
you know the meringues
[the one that got alot of mixed reactions? yea... that one...]
well, i *think* syahir ordered 100 pieces
i wasn't sure whether he was serious or not
still, i made the 100 [ and more]
i slaved in the kitchen
alas, most of them were butt-ugly

i actually made two batches
one sucked
because i did that without adult supervision (my mum was working)
so i didn't know how to do the piping
but they tasted great
but the appearance.... haiyah... disappointing...
so i made the second batch
piping was worse
you wanna know why?
because i did the piping again
hahah
my mum helped
(don't tell anyone: hers didn't turn out so great, either. hehe)

don't know why, they were sticky
so i rebaked
but by the time i got round to re-baking,
i was late for school

what could i do?
i just got ready,
took a piece of bread and chicken patty
and brisk-walked to the mrt station
man
i think i broke the world record walking there
in 5 minutes flat
hahah

then i realized; no ez-link card!
so i bought the standard ticket
which explains why i missed the 6.55 train
so i waited for 7.00 train
met sheng yu
he's an expert on almost being late
so i entrusted my scared-of-scolding life into his hands
we walked to school
[which was a good thing, considering that i had no ez-link card]
WE MADE IT
thank you, sheng yu
for saving my ass
i wouldn't have made it without you

well, i didn't see syahir all day
so i couldn't ask about the meringue
in case anybody wanna pass the message
syahir; your meringues are with me
[hope you don't mind ugly meringue]
[you'll like the taste, though]

anyway, today's "moral-of-the-day" is:
never try to cheat without enough practice
hahah
let me explain
while walking to school, sheng yu told me
that you can take the mrt without paying
all you have to do is place your handon the tapping place
immediately after someone else has tapped their card so
then you'll go through
and i got a confirmation from atikah
so i tried
it was a complete and utter flop
hahah
you know what happened?
i borrowed tipah's wallet
and immediately after she tapped
i tapped
walked through
and promptly got stuck between the doors
hahah
how embarassing
luckily, though, i had a cover-up
i pretended that i didn't know that the wallet didn't have a card
hahah
we laughed as hard as rocks all the way up to the platform after that
haiz...
so embarassing -.-"
hahah

anyways
i just gotta say
quantum mechanics (the non-mathematical part, at least)
is interesting
i love it!
hahah

<3 feeen

post OBS

more than a week since obs...

post obs depression ah...


hahah... but i feel great...



of course lah, there are moments where i'm wishing i was back in obs

i remember the good times there

but it's back to reality, baby

and i must say,

i'm handling reality quite well

no thoughts about suicide yet

but maybe by next year... (KIDDING!!! u noe me. i love life too much :D)



today was the celebration for teacher's day

i like the item put up by the 202 chiminals '03

interesting

and the dedications

yea

those were funny

especially the part about mr osgodby

"...what's so shocking??..."

or something like that lah



the food delight

i never really saw what the teachers had been given to eat

this year i couldn't care less

i got mixed reactions about my meringue

some people say it's too sweet (hazwani even gagged! i felt so sad!)

but some people liked it

i saw someone trying to run away with the whole tupperware

and i saw someone who actually did run away with it

hahah

syahir, syahir...

hahah

he even ordered 100 pieces from me

costs $20.00/-

heheh

by friday

anybody else wanna order, just give me a holler:)



anyway, the horoscope thing

in school, about the teachers,

were interesting

but sagittarius was said to be over-confident

i mean, come on

me, over-confident??

hahah...

sometimes i think i have too little self-esteem

but i can be over-confident lah

but only when i'm doing something i'm very good at, lah

like...um...

i dun think there's anything i'm particularly good at...

oh well... hahah



i think i'm giving up

don't ask me why

the odds are against me

the stakes are too high



it's too far away

too much out of reach

he belongs to someone else

to some other BITCH! (again, KIDDING!!!

i don't harbour any ill feeling towards either of them. REALLY.)



hahah

i just love to joke, don't I?

<3feeena>

Sagittarius

November 21 to December 20



Primary Characteristics



* Affectionate

* Honest



Positive Personality Traits



* Honest and straightforward

* Intellectual and philosophical

* Jovial and good-humored

* Optimistic and freedom-loving



Dangers



* Can be blindly optimistic and careless

* May be irresponsible and superficial

* May become restless

* Sometimes tactless

obs

i love obs!!!

u noe, i like things i'm good at
and this camp, i found some things i'm good at
so i like them
and liking these things
have made me LOVE OBS!!!
wat a theory!

heheh
but really
i remember back in spark-c, i hated rock-climbing
because i barely made it to the middle of the rock wall
but this time
i made it up to the top
and quite fast, too :)
i love rock-climbing!

and i love kayaking!!!
same situation, too
i can go at a moderate speed
i love it!!

and i love my watch!!
nice people!!
great people!
nobody aksyen inside!!
hahah... that was my main worry


there were quite a few incidents in obs that are very memorable
such as the sea expedition
we were delayed for two hours
set off late because of cat 1 weather (category 1: lightning risk, so on)
when we did leave camp 3, it was drizzling abit
current was quite strong ( itwas strong all the way)
(and raining all the way)

had our lunch only one hour behind schedule
and made it back, washed and kept the boats,
retrieved the bags
all on time
yea, so i'm pretty proud about that
hehe

and the night before that was blissful (discounting all the mosquitos)
we had sentry duty at night to watch the kayaks
all i did was go out to the gate to the beach at the designated time
sat down on a poncho laid on the ground
relaxed under the stars
looked at the bright lights across the channel at johor
listened to the music coming from there (quite loud also leh)
and thought about life
my philosophies
how i'm living it
how to make it better
how to make me better as a person

wow
so philosophical
hahah
but some friends say i think alot
which i do
especially when i'm really quiet and staring off into space
hahah

anyway
one of the perks of obs was missing school
the other was being around friends for a week
third was being around someone for a week
ahahah
what an added benefit

but of course, all these great bonuses don't come without a disadvantage
i finally knew
who he was with
and that started me thinking
(again)
what am i doing?
waiting around?
i don't need no man to keep me happy
which made me think of a song
cinderella by tata young

:: When I was just a little girl

My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story

It always was about a Princess in distress

And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be

Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

I don't wanna be like Cinderella

Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar

Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free

I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting

For a handsome prince to come and save me

On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side

Don't want to depend on no-one else

I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind

Who's not afraid to show that he loves me

Somebody who will understand

I'm happy just the way I am

Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him

just as strong

as he will be there for me

When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

I can slay

my own dragon

I can dream

my own dreams

My knight in shining armour is me

So I'm gonna set me free ::

quite meaningful lyrics, aye?
heheh

i am woman, hear me roar
<3 feeena

camp

i'm still undergoing preparations for camp... so scared!!!

but it's a good scared... it's like, more nervous, actually...
what if i forget to bring something really important?
like... like... underwear!!!
or... maybe... clothes!!!

inspire... expire... inspire... expire...

ok, calmed down... but i'm still kinda nervous

i don't really know who's in my watch
except rai (or hana, as i call her)
stephanie
hafizah
this gal named si hui or sth
and another chinese gal i dunnoe

but i'm determined to forge ahead
looking for new adventures
and friends

hahah... sounds like something johnny quest would say

i'm bringing 6 tee shirts... didn't think 4 wld be enough
+ 1 long sleeved
+ sleeves (black)
+ 3 long pants (as stated)
+ a whole bunch of other stuff you don't need to know

the only thing i haven't bought is the solid fuel tablets
don't really know where to find them...
searched jurong point yesterday for sarah and irna's stuff
then went to the neighbourhood shops to look for my fuel thingie
all the shopkeepers asked had absoluely no idea what it was

haiz... aniwayy
did u hear? we're supposed to go to school wearing pe shorts
but i'm not gonna do that
i'll wear a skirt
then keep it in my locker

whoo... can't wait for camp
heehee :)

<3 feeena

shop, shop, shop, merajukk!!!

heyy all

went shopping todae
i like to shop
retail therapy
and nice stuff to see

aaniway, i went shopping for my camp stuff
bought the sticker mosquito repellent
nice
i'm wearing it right now
kinda smells, but it's not that strong nor unpleasant

and i bought this roll-on thingie that's supposed to help me not sweat.
i've been meaning to buy it for months
and i've finally bought it
all for the sake of camping, of course.
i don't want to be hot and sweaty and smell there.
not where there'd be almost everybody from sec 3 there.

aand, i bought sun block!
we actually have anpther bottle at home.
but this one's better
this one is spf 130!
the one we have is only spf 30
so i managed to coerce my parents into buying it.

you know, i've managed to coerce people into doing alot of things.
goes with my personality, i guess.
being an IS and all.

but, my shopping trips with my parents usually end with either me or my sister sulking
i know, i know.
what brats.
heheh
it comes with being the youger two girls.
the only two girls, in fact.
but i've stopped this years ago.
this time, my sister sulked.
about not being allowed to buy a dryfast tee.
i wanted one too.
tried to persuade my parents into buying me at least one.
didn't manage it, so i stopped there.

can't wait for camp.
no school for one week

no teevee for one week

no home work for one week

no radio for one week

no parents for one week

no parents for one week

i guess i am going to miss my parents
i am, what they call, manja
i guess that's quite obvious.
what other parents would go all the way to kallang theatre
just to send a ticket which their child has forgotten?
quite a few.
but because my parents were willing to do that
i'm grateful
luv u, mama and abah


feeena

to not breathe

you know, sometimes i find it easy just to stop breathing...
life seems to be on a standstill
it just comes naturally
sometimes, i stop breathing without even knowing it; and only when i absolutely need air do i start breathing again
you should try it sometime
it's relaxing
it makes you focus more on what is important in life
don't ask me how it helps
it just does

there. i just did it again
sometimes breathing is such hard work
i find it easier to not breathe

and when i die, i wld have already gotten used to not breathing

*fin`land

hurdle hurdle

ok ok... i admit...
i am actually a leetle teeny weeny bit peeved that he's taken...
but so what?
what can i do about it?
nothing rite?

yup. that's what i thought...
aaaniway... i have more pressing matters on my mind...
for one, common test is next week! and add math is on monday!!
i'm gonna go crazy!!!

i'm so proud i wrote something in malay to relay my feelings... it sounds nice, to me. of course, i couldn't have done it w/o syaz's help. thx syaz =) here it is :

betapa sedih hatiku berasa
mukaku dibasahi air mata cinta
gundah-gulana, jiwaku meronta
akhirnya ku dapati kisah yang sebenar

rupa-rupanya dia sudah berpunya...

quite nice rite? no? heheh... well, i think it is... and that's that...

well, today was an ok day... except for the fact that he passed by me while he was going up the stairs... and i the opposite way... i think our shirtsleeves touched for a moment there... OOOHH!!! electricity!!! heheh... joke...=)

after school my father fetched me to cck stadium... where the closing ceremony for the 29th annual ASEAN youth championships... and where our school military band was performing...

will wonders never cease... i actually did some homework there! heheh... my dad and i were sitting rite at the top... except for an ahlete from indonesia, i think... who was sitting next to me... prolly cause the view there is the best...

then my mother came... we watched... spore did great... we got a 2nd for the 4x400 relay... jonah tried... but too far to catch up i guess... anyway, GREAT JOB!

saw the band... saw tipah and sarah and irna and some peeps i noe... nice... i cheered! heheh...

after all that, went to lot 1 to eat (before i saw many people taking photos of the ever-so-famous hurdler)(who else lah) the service at let's eat was atrocious! ahahah... but i got even... by being impolite without them realising... being the callous baboons they are, the of course do not know that elbows on the table are impolite (which i did) (they were, too) and of course they didn't know that you're not supposed to show the cut portion of your food to people... and i did it pointedly... and they didn't know...how typical... =) i'm not actually that bothered...

bought lianhe zaobao... there was my bro's photo... and straits times home section... there he was... and he was there yesterday too... and in the news on tuesday... and last week's chinese newspaper... last week in home section he was interviewed... seems he has dominated the local track and field news... heheh

anyway...i guess that's about it for now... i'm planning on finishing my history essay (due last week)

finLAND

( did i mention my bro fell yesterday? yea, he did it when he was lunging forward... and just a few weeks ago we'd laughed at this guy who fell wen lunging)

yesterday was fun!!!

even though i had to sit at a table full of people i didn noe... not to mention that they're all ex-BPians, male and chinese ( except for miss lee-teacher-of-dance)(she's female)

almost every course i and anum disappeared to another table... then we realized that it was rude, so we sat there... until they all left, then we left too...

I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAD A HANDBAG!!! AND I WORE RELATIVELY HIGH HEELS!!! OMG!!! SOMEBODY GET AN AMBULANCE! I'M GONNA FAINT!!!
heheh... a bit too dramatic, dont u think? ;)

it was ok lah... they guys tried to include us sometimes... e one next to me was nice... he helped me take some herbal chicken!! without me even asking!! so sweet:) ahahah.. alas, i couldn see who he was cos he was next to me...
oh yah, yu hao or sth (the chinese opera guy) was at my table oso

dishes were ok...was so full at the end... so was everybody else... we left the last dish almost untouched....

so sad... when SM Goh gave a speech nobody paid any attention... i wonder how he must feel... such a distinguished guest comes, and nobody pays attention...

we all walked to the MRT st. after that... i noe lah, i was abit annoying with the cake... too drunk on coca-cola, i guess. heheh....

dropped off at marsiling with faj... so scary... alot of foreign workers around... and i was walking home alone!! and, guess what? when i took a taxi with syaz, the taxi driver said i looked like a tanned china girl!! and atikah said i looked like a tanned vietnamese girl!! and i was wearing heels!!!! DANGER! DANGER!!! and what more, i had no hp with me!!! and i was carrying a handbag!!! fortunately, nth happened... heheh (i was playing up the scenario abit)

guess who was there at the dinner??!! bounce up!!! resplendent in light blue!!! he is so smart! he understood the concept of smart casual! other people wore shorts and t-shirts... so embarassing...

heheh...

<3 fin :):):):):):):):):):):):) d^.^b

45th anniversary today!!! aaaaargghh!!!!
i'm in a frenzy over what to wear!!!!

what i mean is, how smart is smart and how casual is casual in 'smart casual'??

andi'm going to cut my hair in another...umm...25 minutes!!!

alone!!! i've never gone alone before!!! aaaaargghhh!!!!

i'm a lousy dancer... eh, wait, i can't call myself a lousy dancer, cause i'm not a dancer...

yesterday was the full dress rehearsal... miss, eh, sorri, mdm rozi said that the principal called us lousy... and everybody thinks that too... haish...

they know we're all rookies... especially for a kaku girl like me... they shd be givin encouragement sey... not putting us down...

but i'm goin to show them... we're goin to practise until it's perfect, then we're gonna steall the limelight... you know why? it's because although we dance for a short while, we make a big impact cos we're bright pink, we're there continuously for that short amount of time we're there, and we'll be dancing infront of the VIPs... the rest are in dark colours, will be goin in and out so there's no focus, and we're gonna outshine them.... mwa-ha-ha!!!

aaaaaniway, what the principal supposedly said put me into a glum mood... my eyes teared up w/o rhyme or reason... but, when i got to Lot 1, i cheered up! yay!! probably because of the bright lights... hahah

then syaz and i went up, and down, the bought bubble tea, went home....

so that's about it... i know i can dance. i know i can. heheh, well, i hope i can.

`bounce up9086838

today is monday, the youth day school holiday...
and i'm going to the beach!
i noe, i noe, i 'm dark enuff...

but i don't care!!!

i wanna cycle...

i wanna swim... in the beautiful brown sea with all the plastic bags and water bottles and pee...

and i wanna build sandcastles!!!


hahah... i'm abit siao today...

`play ball9086838

you noe, i've just realized that i hardly ever mention bounce up in my blog entries... this one more low-key than others...heheh... he's my big (not little) secret (cos a few people noe mah)

anyway, i'm still reeling from the strain of yesterday's performance and orals... i kinda like performing... i want more! heheh... and i might just take haiguang up on his offer... heheh... imagine me, a humble, simple girl, with a single out in the market... who would want to buy? you tell me...

now that i've realised that i don't mention bounce up alot, i'll describe him here...here goes nothing...

:: he has such a wonderful smile that can melt my heart...(awww!)
:: he's such a nice guy (don't ask me how i noe... ask tipah and sarah)
:: he has a wonderful physique... not that it matters, but it's an added bonus
:: i should just stop here... if not people might guess.... hehe

i'm having a sore throat, an aftershock from yesterday... and i have diarrhoea! where did THAT come from??!!

heheh, anyway, i'll stop here... oh yah. the other day i went to library with syaz and atikah... found this marriage book which had this compatibilty test where they test whether a girl and a guy are good together (useful for arranged marriages last time)... i did all three ways shown and guess what?

ALL THREE STATE THAT WE"RE DOOMED!!!! hehe... yup. that's about it
fin=)

`play ball9086838

bummer

haiz...

another round of BPian idol... still very disappointed...
nevertheless, the experience was great, and now i'm all geared up for singapore idol!!

heheh... i noe. not funny. but still, i need a little pick-me-up. after the idol thing i had malay o-level oral... followed by english oral... they were all okay, i still can't speak malay, and i was offered a record deal.

Hah! bet you didn't see that comin, did ya? actually hai guang said something about me recording a single. of courselah, i kembang. i needed a compliment, u noe? after such a taxing idol experience (for the second time, i might add! and yet i didn't win again).

i finally wore something nice. although one of the judges did comment on my choice of footwear. can you imagine?! of all things to comment on (such as my voice quality, performance, etc, etc), she decided to comment on my slippers. they were quite nice u noe. mata rabun ah her.

some problems with my singing. i dunno. i keep getting mixed answers. like microphone too loud, song played too loud, my not being able to move around onstage because of being held back by the microphone stand.

nevermind lah. i'm so tired of this. performing was exhilarating even though my voice was shaking.

from my vantage view point behind the curtains onstage, i cld see HIM! yes! the bounce up him! so nice. i can just look out and there he is in the audience. but during my performance i didn't dare look at him. scared to see. later too nervous.

anyway, i was kinda afraid that someone in specific wld win. wat if he were to represent our school in the cluster idols? hisham even said that if he won, they were all going to bantai him. heheh. i feel so bad.

and i heard what some people in the audience said about me. wat did they mean by "menyampah! pakai baju pink konon. action arh tu". hello! pink clothes mean i'm action meh? wat if i liked pink ?(which i don't) who are you to judge my character from the colour of the clothes i wear?

i may seem a little bit like shooting my mouth off here. i'm just letting off steam. oral so stress. haish. anyway, i'm stopping here for today. this the chronicles of the alien chocolate girl, signing off.

(so lame! )

wow... it's been almost two months since i've last blogged...
a lot has happened since then... for one, i have only one failure for the mid-year examinations...(only a-maths... yay!) but my results are worse over-all...

i'm gonna be performing at the 45th anniversary...so happy!

umm, my brother flew to germany to run... so far, all i know is that in 100m he got a third (and it's not even his niche sport!) and now he's in switzerland to run... i am so jealous!!!

aaaniway, while my brother was galivanting through europe, my family and i went to genting
I LOVE GENTING!!! it's so cold and nice and though it's june, there was so much "kabus"... i think fog or something lah...
and i rode a rollercoaster! or, more specifically, a flying coaster.. it's like the yakult something flyer at escape themepark.. only you go through the whole rollercoaster thing...

so far i've done, let me see.... NO hw at all! i'm so lazy!

nowadays i am addicted to shopping... nothing can cheer me up better than going to stores and looking at nice stuff... provided that i can buy them lah... right now i'm trying to wrangle my father into buying me a creative zen neeeon mp3 player (is that the name>) of course, i'm the one that's paying lah... $2.40 every week for 4 years... (imagine that... by the time i finish paying i'll be 19!)

after this i'm going to the library to borrow books.... then i'm going MP3 shopping! yeay!!!

ciao, adios, au revoir, bon voyage (??) heheh
fin