Graduation project starts next semester, and we have to write a proposal for it as our final assignment for HS401 this semester. Yet, I don't have a clear idea about what I want to research next sem. I've had a few ideas bouncing around in this skull of mine, but I don't know how feasible they are, nor have I been yet bothered enough to check. Plus, there's always the issue of certain topics being a little too sensitive for me to study :\

How scary is it to think that in a year and a few months from now, I'll have finished with school? And then find a job I must, and with that carry more responsibility than I have ever been accustomed. Pay all those pesky loans, show up for work everyday, act a certain appropriate way, perform well under pressure, answer to strangers who are not there to teach me but to judge me. How scary is that?

I'm supposed to be doing my 2200 word essay, but my mind and fingers keep wandering. I just can't seem to concentrate on one thing unless it is absolutely urgent or last minute (same thing).

I have scrabble tomorrow (all together now: *big sigh*). It would have been more fun, if not for the fact that I completely suck at both scrabble and boggle. I never knew that words could be so complicated. Thinking, memorising, strategising - have I ever been good at any of these things? Never... And these people are competitive! They want to be champions! I'm thoroughly mystified by this way of thinking, since I thought recreational games were just that. Recreation. Have you ever heard of competitive recreational games? Erhm, maybe there's such a thing. I just haven't been socialised into such things yet.

Oh, essay, essay, dear essay. You are the bane of my existence. I don't know what to do with you right now. I'm not even close to being done. You will cause me to lose sleep. You bleeding lazy thing bleeding the life out of me. Now, get out of my tired, uncaring face!

Ha ha ha. I'm not making sense, nor am I actually amusing. So, so, sooooo sian with essay. If essay were a person, I would have already thrown it out the window, or made it be responsible for itself. Again, no sense made.

On a random note, the Jun brothers rock, Taec redeemed himself in my eyes, and Nichkhun just keeps appearing more and more useless.

fina

(Is it sad that I'm still waiting? When I should be doing the BLOODY ESSAY?! ... D= )

omg i so love Po from the teletubbies!!
she just makes me wanna say *eeeee! so cuuuttteeee!!!!!*
hahah
seriously, when she say *eh-oh tinky winky, ehoh dipsy, eh-oh laalaa* when greeting the others...
hahah just so a-frickkin'-dor-able heehee XD

do u see now the appeal of po?
hahah

ok, so this week is one that i'm hoping will be relaxed...
monday holiday, friday college day,
and all i need is for wednesday and thursday to be relaxed
*please, can you grant me this one+++(in case i have more) wish?*

i got a keychain from liepzig
yay!! exactly what i wanted
even if he (bro) deigned to buy me only one thing
and nothing else,
i'd still hope for it to be a keychain, to add to my collection
and i got it! (possibly to make up for the other keychain-less trips to dusseldorf and guangzhou)
hehe

and of course the customary chocolates he always buys
and cookies! heavenly, 40% choc chip, cookies!!
and pencil cases, and a handbag for Mama
and lots of pics and videos
okay, this is one trip i'm happy with :)

met up with syaz after econs paper last thursday
caught up on old times
it's been a while since i've looked at the sky during the day
the only times i remember that vast canvas of wondrous colours domed over our heads
is at night
so here's a picture of that sky
but it's not that nice
except for the contrast between the darker and lighter clouds

monday was shopping day - hari-raya-shopping-for-fabrics day!
went to that building on bencoolen street with the huge OG sign
wasn't impressed
walked to bugis, and the street shops there blew me away
can't wait to revisit
:)

then went to arab street to look for fabrics
found one italian designer silk
huge flowers-looking-like-butterflies
psychedelic shades of blue, pink and yellow
hehe
might be too big to look nice as baju kurung, but i really loved the colours!
went to countless stores
bought that "kotak-kotak" (checkered) kind, from kashmir
lavender/gray/cream, paired with a plain cream kind of fabric
walked around some more before sis finally found something she liked
and the nice shopkeepers were so persuasive,
that from not wanting to buy any for herself,
that my mom ended up buying two different fabrics
talk about good salesmanship
hahah

and finally, today, looked at some perasan-cute/sexy girl's blog
eww, her pic on her blog's page was so... flat
and i do crudely mean the boobage area
totally went "ugghh" at her pics and posts
makes me wonder why i even bother visiting that blog...
oh yeah! to gawk and laugh at this kind of person
hahah so mean
i remember leaving a sarcastic comment, don't think she let it be posted though
don't wanna say it here
too bitchy... hehe

ok then
*sings* "it ends tonight" for now...
good night, sleep tight, and no, i don't think there are bedbugs
(they existed in them long ago non-springs mattresses, so no worries about bites :])

fina <3>