saw primary school kids playing ping pong with their wallets
in SAJS on the way home

and just now i dreamed about playing tennis against primary school boys
... using only our hands.

go figure.

7.35 am.
my brain is tired.
i have gone through so many economics essays,
and yet remain no more proficient than before i began.
i'm taking an hour long break.

1. pen ink finishing midway through the first page of lit paper
-_-;
only available pen was the uber thick one but wtv.

2. told pat i'd put up a picture to show how short the shortest person in eight-man rowing usually is compared to his teammates.
would look funnier if the whole team was standing in a line... but you get the picture.
basically every team has an extremely small person to sit at the head of their boat



3. me and dan are such unfortunate souls! our third class photo features only a fraction of each of our faces. mine the worst, especially.
needless to say, i won't be buying that photo...

bleh. bleh bleh.
i hate economics. and i freakin' hate the school.

i really, really, really dislike the new principal.
i really do.
her patronising lack of trust, which has in fact been detrimental to my studies in that i can't get any actual studying done, really gets to me,
especially since i cannot do anything about it.

absolutely nothing. zilch. nada. zero.

i can choose to skip school, devote my time to studying, whilst getting an earful of shit from that particularly notorious tyrant.
or i can go to school dutifully, come home late, be too tired to study, flunk Prelims, and still get an earful of shit, albeit perhaps from a different source.
either way, it's a lose-lose situation.

i freakin' hate this.

what sparked this off, at so late a time as 12.55 in the morning before the school week starts?

besides reading dan's blog post, which i agree with wholeheartedly, i read the letter that the school administration sent to every one of our households for our parents to read and sign.
yes, sign.
like we're bleeding 10-year-olds that need to be supervised in things that have a bearing on our futures.
yea, yea, we know; we get it.
A levels are coming, it's time to get serious about our futures.
we know, because what's at stake is ours.
we don't need power-crazy people demanding that we study the way they prescribe, because we've been doing it for the last 11 years.

and, lest we forget, how can i not mention the fact that most of our papers are freakin' before the one week holiday?
how in the universe are we to study with classes going on, pray tell?
especially with classes going on till 7 in the bleedin' evening?

bah bah bah bah.
the aforementioned "bah"s are there as substitutes to vulgar words that i otherwise would have used.
but i've decided to refrain, and to be a lady despite the "bleedin's" and the "freakin's" that's i've let slip past me.
because it is 1 in the morning, and i shall need to catch some sleep.

one final bah.
good night.

finanana*
stickin' it to the man passively in a blog entry that will make no discernible difference

omg! a flash of briliance!
here's the joke that i just came up with:

question: what vehicle does jerrald (the cube) take?

dunnoe?
well, here's the answer: a CUBicle!

AhahahaHAHAhahahHAHAHA!
okay, my creative well is dry again...

Olympics tidbits

1.saw calvin run for singapore yesterday
200m heats, wasn't it?
he didn't come in last! i'm so proud!
bleh, but i forgot to tape it for my bro...

2.was watching swimming 50m freestyle finals
this guy called Cesar from brazil won
from the replay underwater, it looked like he didn't take in any air while swimming
in fact, the commentator said he only took in air once on the blocks, and once during the race
that's it
for 50 m
that is mind-boggling!

3. did ya hear about the Chinese gymnastics controversy?
their women's team won gold
but there are rumours that some of the gymnasts are not old enough
some even say that they have proof that he kexin is only 14
if this is found to be true, then they rightfully should be stripped of their medal
but i hope not!
imagine how much they must have trained for this
and besides, the chinese are generally smaller than caucasians and such
so i hope it's just a case of stunted growth
because i pity those girls!
(in my opinion, kexin actually looks old enough; it's that deng linlin who looks 12!)

4. i love yang yilin's costume for the individual all-round women's gymnastics event!
it's so arsenal-istic, with it's deep red colour and white-coloured sleeves
jiang yuyuan's one wasn't too bad, either
(yilin's age is also disputed, although she definitely looks older than kexin and linlin
in fact, yilin's taller than shawn johnson!)
i'd pity them so much if they do get stripped of gold
cos interviews have shown that yilin last went home more than a year ago and hasn't had a holiday since
even on sundays she goes to the gym to "have fun"
such a sad life!

on another note, i have no idea if my medicine is working for me
sure, my voice is back 75%, but my coughing seems worse!
and i have only 1 1/2 doses of my cough medicine left!
blaaahhh

finanana*

so... national day was fun!

went up to the 58th floor of UOB plaza to Dan's dad's office to watch fireworks
and eat burger king with dan's bro and mum, thanks to dan's dad
view was fab
we could see the entire spectacle,
including the huge lit-up man-made singapore flag at the padang
so cool!

then we went off exploring, being the 18 and not-quite-18 year olds we are
(me- i'm the only one not 18)
dan was eager to show her IC to anyone who cared to ask
just 'cause she can
haha

i was a little more pensive
few more months to go; i'm not quite there yet
although... can't think of why they'd worry
it's not like i'd even want to do anything i'm not supposed to
because i can't... like duh!

anyways, went out for some after dinner dining
sat on high stools at a high table, kinda isolated from everyone else
felt kinda cool
(although, there were kids running around...)
dan and steph, being 18, ordered the more popularly known 18 year old drinks
like singapore sling (patriotic!), SOTB (don't ask) and bloody mary
while i, being who i am, opted for safer stuff
(mocktails)
(which are called "virgin ___", for obvious reasons)
and a chocolate cake!

i was totally not expecting to find the virgin mary to taste all savoury and spicy!
such a surprise
i mean, i read about how people make their own and drink it
and watch them do it in tv shows and movies
so i thought, hmm, maybe the non-alcoholic one will taste nice...
wrong! utterly wrong!
tastes like salsa!
which wouldn't have been so bad if i'd had bread to dip into the drink
but it burns your throat like only tobasco can
who in the world likes drinking tobasco?!


the infernal marys, virgin and bloody both



dan had some of that infernal virgin mary
which i would think accounted for her vomiting all over
cos i nearly vomited a few times too

(and now, i think because of that +cake+virgin margarita,
i've lost my voice!)

surprisingly, steph looked and felt fine
even with that bloody mary
i guess me and dan are the younger ones (figuratively speaking)
haha

the weird army dude who served us was so freakin' irritating
always coming to our table necessarily
and talking too much
and asking to get our table when the other dude already got it
trying too hard
i have no idea if it's flirting [with... steph (; ]
but it was sure as hell irritating

but all in all, a fun night!
haha

fina*
who will be forever 17 =)

life's lessons

a virgin margarita teaches you
that lime doesn't flow with chocolate fudge cake
a virgin mary teaches you
that tobasco and pepper don't belong in a drink
and a high office floor teaches you
that pressure isn't your ears' best friend

fina*

pretending to be mature is so immature!
noobs=P

did i mention arsenal beat real madrid last night?
while i was doing lit essay?
till 3 in the morning?

did i mention i've had two hours of sleep since then?
ran my 2.4km run?
stayed in school till 4.30?

did i mention that the econs teacher's putting me in peer tutoring?
after which i went for econs tuition?
three hours, ending at 9.30?

did i mention that i am finally on my way to getting a silver napfa badge?
=)

arsenal lost last night against juventus
but, boy, am i still so proud of them!

you see, this is because they played an almost under-21 side against juventus
and the loss was only due to trezeguet's goal, which was off-side anyways, but was not justly ruled as such... (bloody linesman!)

but the kids that played for arsenal were great!
aaron ramsey is only 17
and Jack Wilshere is only bleedin' 16 years old!
fabregas, clichy, almunia all didn't play...
dennilson did, and he's only 20
and carlos vela's only 19!
even johan djourou's still only 21!

so of course i'd be super-duper proud of arsenal!
even though they appear to have little chance of retaining the Emirates Cup this year...
i still love 'em!

fina*

and yes, i am still wearing the arsenal jacket everywhere i go!

check out this janet jackson music vid, feedback
you don't need to watch the whole video; just from 2:16 to 3:20
cos the dance is wicked!
not just the moves, but the whole coordination thing by the dudes in black
and you know i have a thing for synchronization and stuff



also, another one of my favouritest singers to see dance is ciara
she just reminds me so much of michael jackson
the dancing, i mean, not the looks (thank god)

fina*

(weirdly enough, i find the dudes in black kinda hot...
i'm a weirdo! must be my horse-rat-monky peronality :x)

starting a new post barely minutes after my last one
because i loved Rapture!

i liked most of the dances
most of them were nice to watch
and Steph's rock ballet was so cool!
she's so obviously a good ballerina and so nice to watch
especially when she goes en pointe, or does attitude turns or arabesques
(or wtv those ballet techniques and terms are called- they all look great!)
go steph!!!

and amanda's hip hop one was cool too
especially liked the moves and energy!

and the kids!! the little cutie kids!
they danced so well!
i got goosebumps seeing the little ones dance hip hop so coolly and gansta-ly

even crescent girls' dance was super nice to watch
cos their choreography and coordination was so cool to watch

but but but
my favouritest dance of all
(and it's so traitorous of me to say this)
was Republic Polytechnic's hip hop dance
oh my word! they breakdanced to unconventionally orchestra-type music
and they were so good!
especially this guy in front, a bit to the left from the audience's POV
just watched him almost the entire time that he was dancing

when i watch dances, my eyes just automatically search amongst the dancers for the one i think is the best
and i just latch on and rarely let go, except to compare to other dancers
of course, in the doing that, i lose a bit of the sense of totality of the dance

however, i can review the wholeness of the dances from the video when i buy it
but to watch the dancers live, see the fluidity and energy of their movements up close
is so, so enjoyable

love rapture! will definitely buy the cd

go steph!
and i get what you mean by that other person's dance
now it's much easier to understand why you feel the way you do about that dance and dancer
i think people watching closely (and even those who didn't) can tell that the dance felt wrong

fina* loves rapture!

yay! for about three days this week i thought that my birth date's position near the end of the year meant i was born in the year of the Rat in the Chinese zodiac.

but turns out that i'm not! yess!!!
i'm still a horse!
i <3 horses!

haha
if everybody in my jc cohort was born in 1990, then our entire cohort would be governed by the element Fire, associated element Yang Metal, combination element Earth,
and have the following characteristics:

• Dynamic, Humanitarian, Enterprising, Adventurous, Restless
• Competitive, Leadership Skills, Strong, Single-minded, Loves a good laugh

not too bad for a bunch of friends.
perhaps the best of the lot!
haha

even almost all the guys born the year before in my class have the same characteristics
cos they're Fire
so it's kinda cool =)

not that i believe wholeheartedly in this thing, although it's got some things right
but it's for some light-hearted fun

okay, from this point on, i shall attempt to delve deeper into my Chinese zodiac...


Wiki says that the Chinese equivalent to my Sagittarian horoscope is the Rat
whose lunar month is in December
and it's called my inner animal since it follows the months

this is uber weird, cos Rats are supposed to avoid Horses
so am i supposed to avoid myself?
haha

as Wiki puts it: The rat may just be too calculating, dictatorial and possessive for the free-spirited and independent horse. A relationship with a rat can potentially break down the horse's free-spirit and cause rage in the rat - as neither will be willing to yield to the other. Rats and Horses will attract each other like no other.

so i attract myself, but i will break down my own spirit while making myself angry?
hmm... sounds about right...
haha
maybe...

now, this inner animal is supposed to dictate my love life and inner self
and my element in that month is Water, season Winter
which is so opposite the Fire and Summer that Horses are supposed to be?

i'm so confused
and perhaps i have reason to be
i mean, look at the conflict between my inner and outer self
i'm practically schizophrenic!
lol

so i searched further, and my secret animal,
that is, the one that follows my time of birth and is supposed to be the truest representation of myself,
is the Monkey
which, together with the Rat, is one of the power signs

still confusing?
in a nutshell, i shall display characteristics of Horses, Rats and Monkeys below,
so we can compare what my outer, inner, and secret selfs are

Horse: (Yang, 3rd Trine, Fixed Element Fire): Cheerful, popular, quick-witted, changeable, earthy, perceptive, talkative, agile mentally and physically, magnetic, intelligent, astute, flexible, open-minded. Can be fickle, anxious, rude, gullible, stubborn, lack stability and perseverance.

Rat: (Yang, 1st Trine, Fixed Element Water): Forthright, disciplined, systematic, meticulous, charismatic, hardworking, industrious, charming, eloquent, sociable, shrewd. Can be manipulative, vindictive, mendacious, venal, selfish, obstinate, critical, over-ambitious, ruthless, intolerant, scheming.

Monkey: (Yang, 1st Trine, Fixed Element Metal): Inventor, motivator, improviser, quick-witted, inquisitive, flexible, innovative, problem solver, self-assured, sociable, polite, dignified, competitive, objective, factual, intellectual. Can be egotistical, vain, selfish, reckless, snobbish, deceptive, cunning, jealous, suspicious.

see how confused i'm supposed to be?
on the one hand, i'm rude,
on the other i am charming
and still on a third hand (if i had one), i'm polite
weird?
and i haven't even counted my Sagittarian horoscope yet!

whatever, it's just for fun
and i probably got some stuff wrong in my research anyways
so if anyone can enlighten me, please do!

fina**

p.s. i must say, my inner animal doesn't flatter myself at all
i now officially hate my inner self!

what a rollercoaster week it was!

I wore something "traditional" to school on monday for racial harmony day. Pat and i were so scared of being late (and with great reason; it was 7.40 when we rolled in), that we told the cab driver to stop at the little "alley" before the foyer and sneaked into school. In the end, though, turned out that nobody was prowling at the foyer anyways.

Not that many people wore costumes, which weirded me out at first, but i grew comfy soon enough. About eight people in class wore costumes (nine if you plus dan!); a HUGE number, if you compare us to other classes
=)

Pat wore a yukata! which nobody else in school wore - a pretty red flowered one. Rachel wore a punjabi pant suit, i think. Neha wore a chinese-looking top, as did Nadrah, who also brought malay costumes for Debbie, Victoria and Cheryl. (and Dan went irish in her clover jacket!)

Metold the dad to pick me up so i wouldn't have to be seen in public wearing what i did (which was why i cabbed to school in the first place), but he told me to meet him in bugis instead, defeating the purpose entirely. so there i was, walking around bugis in shiny satiny material on a school day. people stared, but whatever. cos they're just jealous
sez'me

Thursday was my pms day, the worst in eighteen years (six, if you want to be technical about it). Chain of events:
cried in the morning over the holocaust
felt fine at breakfast
was super spitting mad at randhir
beat up jeremy before pe
and cried right after pe
and then met steph who came for dance
and had some happy tea (or soyabean milk)
depressed by the time tuition rolled about

all that was pms in a nutshell. but but but! then i got my arsenal jacket and bottle, which i realized had arrived only after i'd finished showering at home. yay yay yay super yay! only took a week for the order to come! way to go arsenal shopping! and so, i was immensely delirious at the end of the night, and went to sleep with a smile still plastered across my face (which is creepy if you think about it, but who cares? i've got arsenal!)

I wore the beautiful piece of arsenal merchandise almost the entire day in school, and while visiting keed in the hospital, and on the way home. I just kept looking for a reason to keep it on, as well as to drink water from my pink arsenal bottle.
loves arsenal!

fabregas wearing the jacket that now i too have!

and my pink bottle!

I must say, that despite feeling a bit uncomfortable at first (as one is wont to feel while in a hospital, facing a friend who was still feeling dizzy and nausea and pain from the operation), visiting keed turned out to be kinda fun! we just stood around and chatted with the rock, after giving him the goodies pat and i shopped around hdb hub for, before heading upstairs for a bit of a visit with dan's mum, and then coming back down to see keed again.

of course, fina just had to create another episode to add to the teh ping and bandung chronicles - this time, with the reflection of a sandwich dispensing machine. uggh, i'm so disgustingly embarrassing to myself! although, i was able to share the honour of hosting another embarrassing episode involving a man, mt alvernia hospital, and a bright yellow sign with pat. so i wasn't alone - mwa-hahaha!

fina*

p.s. i'm just trying out a new system of posting in full sentences and in actual paragraphs. just wanted to feel a leetle teeny weeny bit grown up right now at three in the morning. not succeeding.

STOP WASHING MACHINE ABUSE!!

haha the ad's back for that SPIN low suds brand
and it cracks me up every time cos it's so unexpected!

fina*

my first (and only) day in school on friday went by ok
although i was whining the entire time about wanting to go home
no, i wasn't sick...
unless you count school as something legitimate to be sick of
haha

anyways, first thing in the morning, i did the HAPI test
and somehow made myself look suicidal
especially when they asked what signs of stress happen to me
and i circled everything except being overemotional

mr soh wasn't in school for lesson
so yay!
and then we went to the fourth floor staircase to hang around and try to do lit annotations
well, everybody else did
i just sat on the floor
and did this:

"i hate BOEY!"
"i hate lit!"
"i hate boey!"
"boey sucks!"

and you get the point

went for late lunch/early dinner with pat, jerrald and joel at kfc
for once they didn't mess up my order
a rare occasion

BUT!

yesterday, when i was buying dinner at kfc for me and bro after tuition
they messed up again!
like, the girl had packed everything except my pepsi
she already filled the cup with pepsi, but left it there on the dispenser
then she packed my lemonade and gave it to me, expecting me to go away
so i stood there,
while she took the other person's order
and proceeded to pack that person's stuff!
she looked at me questioningly when she noticed me still there

turns out she forgot my order
like all the other kfcs in singapore
be they in kallang, woodlands or potong pasir
wth?
i should have complained
i really should
but i'm not the type
i will next time!


on a good, better - the best! - note, i'm getting arsenal's official warm up jacket for my birthday!
wooooohoooooo!!!
rejoice!!!!!
although, i did accidentally order two online
a careless mistake that should have cost me $340 overall
but the great arsenal customer service staff got my message to cancel one order
and cancelled it barely hours afterwards
i love arsenal!!

fina*


p.s. why do i have such bad luck with kfc?!

the past few days have been horrible

i spent thursday about as near to blind as humanly possible
haha
cos my contacts were seriously stinging my eyes before assembly
so i had to take them both off
plus, my specs broke the night before
the only way i could read was to literally hold the paper 10 cm from my eyes
i must have looked seriously funny

the next day came the first in a series of stomach/ gastric flu days
couldn't stand it
even after i got home, i just lay on the bed, writhing around like a worm
something that's continuing till even now
gahh

and i had to miss tuition on saturday because of that
so that's money and opportunity wasted

i'm gonna go lie down again
FINA World Diving Series

(haha i watched it on tv; their flag is really the word "FINA"!)

omg omg omg omg omg

i seriously felt a super soft spot for aliaksandr hleb cos he looked so frail, and nice
but he's such a bitch!
such a super big effing beeyatch!

uuuggghhhh!!!!
he's been making it sooo obvious that he want to move to barcelona
(yea right, like he'd be able to play there;
everybody there's better than him, i'd think)



as if that wasn't insult enough, he's lashed out at wenger and fabregas!
he said fabregas was a "more selfish" player than he was, with his willingness to shoot when he has an opportunity
that's selfishness??!!
like, hello!
fabregas has scored more goals than hleb has
and that has helped the team!
it's not a "problem", like hleb said it was!
it's players who won't shoot - that's the bloody problem!



aarrrggghhhh!
darn, have i misjudged hleb or what?
i overestimated his character by a whole damn lot!



as you can see, i am disappointed.
super disappointed!



the traitor on the left! along with the other dude, flamini, who's also just abandoned arsenal!

finishing up my sgc. wish me luck!
fina*

yea, bowling was fun!!!

met dan, pat and jerr
and went skating and bowling at kallang
how fortunate that both were available at kallang!
and, if we had wanted to, we could have watched a movie
but the dark knight only comes out on the extremely late date of 17th july
darn

i wanna go bowling again!
i am super lousy, the three of them can attest to that
haha
but it's all in good fun

bowlinggg!!!!!

and i hate schoooollllll!!!!!

wow, typing in extra, unnecessary letters is funnnn!!!!

haha
ok
will try to do a bit of my acjc paper
although i can't find the compre anywhere...
heelllppppp!!!!

ffiiinnnnaaaaaa

went to the arsenal website today
so far, the only new member that i saw in the "players" category is ramsey
a player that signed in june 2008 from cardiff city

the new arsenal kit:




looks soooo different form their usual kind
instead of a white sleeve on a red shirt,
they've decided to go with a white stripe on both sleeves...
doesn't look so impressive just lying flat like that,
but fabregas makes it look ok:



so maybe it only looks good on a person
on which case, on my wishlist for my birthday...
...is the ladies' home kit!
i didn't know they made them in ladies' sizes
but i'm glad they do!
my second splurge when i get my salary after A's
(besides a dslr camera - if i do get one)
will be the kit!

(40 pounds)



plus a few other things
like:
(35 pounds)


(now only 15 pounds! down from 35)

a hoodie!
can't decide between the two, though i'm leaning towards the second one


(24 pounds, down from 30 pounds)

and a watch!
my pattern is a watch every year, so maybe this will be it

hopefully, they'll have come out with new designs by the end of this year

aaannndddd
i hope arsenal's new away kit comes out nicely
hopefully even nicer than the home one
so i have a nicer one to buy!
gaaaccckkkk! i really want these things!

but i probably won't get them all
or maybe not even one
i'm notoriously too lazy to order things online
maybe i'll buy a knock-off...

(haha)
...fina

p.s. i crossed the border over to the liverpool webbie
to see their ladies' collection
and i'm ashamed to say that some of their tops are prettier than other arsenal ones
=(
and their ladies' jacket is nice! in a creamy white and red

i'm such a traitor!! T_T

darn, school's starting again tomorrow
now that it's just a few hours away,
what's going through my mind is what i should have done to enjoy my holiday best

like go to the beach!
man, if "unfulfilled dream" had a name, it'd be going to the beach!
i should have just gone alone!
but i could hardly muster up the energy to wake up in the morning
everyday, i wake up at 6.30, pray, and go back to sleep
... or watch friends!
haha

something else i should have done: shopping!
not for clothes, though i'd have enjoyed that very much
it's just that i've been wanting to go to borders or kinokuniya
perhaps pick up a football magazine, or maybe another pretty notebook
but i didn't =(
lethargy has been winning it's battle against me lately

although, i did manage to do some late night shopping at mustafa centre yesterday
late as in 11 pm
so fun!
a trip there always consists of me taking anything i want and putting it in the cart
and believe me you, mustafa has a ginormous variety of goodies
stuff you can't find at ntuc or cold storage!
yesterday, though, restraint came in the form of my sister
many of the things i wanted, like the la va quiri cheese cubes, or chocolate milk, or dark chocolate gelare ice cream, were taken out of the cart and returned to their places
well, take pity on my parents' wallets

i did get my two cartons of mac and cheese, and sara lee strawberry cheesecake,
and aloe vera drink, and choc chip cookie dough ice cream,
and bickford's creamy soda, and pop tarts,
and... i'm salivating already! haha
so maybe putting those things back in the cart wasn't such a great loss...

hahah
i'm going off to enjoy the remnants of my holiday
all twelve hours of it
see ya!

fina*