i'm getting glum-er and glum-er by the day. all because of sth that happened on saturday. WARNING! i'm not gonna hold back my words, so better be prepared ah... i don't mean that i'm gonna start swearing a blue streak or anything:>
On saturday supposed to meet tipah and sarah at marsiling station... then i sms them that i come abit later and will they please wait awhile? so i came and i sat down. and waited and waited and waited. i felt so stupid u noe... letting alot of trains go by... and i heard that if u've sat there for a certain amount of time they will ask u to leave.... so i go cck.... mebe they waiting there or something. then i go, cannot find them... i called tipah hp, but engaged. i didn noe wat to do, so i called my parents even tho we had just had a quarrel to let me out of the house. aranged to meet them a causeway point... then i sit at library alone and waited lah...
on monday when i asked them about it they were so flippant. how do you think i felt? they didn even haf the courtesy to sms me back. i had felt so hurt/ felt like crying so many times... then i just keep quietlah... i wouldn dare ask them abt it again...they'd probably wonder what the big deal was and think i was overly sensitive... then i saw the neoprint they took with atikah anum they all...
right now i think that if i were gone oso they wldn notice. feels so much like primary school rite now. i hated life in primary scool. i had no friends, no life, i had nothing. couldn't wait to graduate. the dreaded feeling's come back. i hate that feeling. it's like i've got nothing to live for.
i've run out of steam. dunnoe wat to type anymore. i think i'll stop here now.
