post OBS

more than a week since obs...

post obs depression ah...


hahah... but i feel great...



of course lah, there are moments where i'm wishing i was back in obs

i remember the good times there

but it's back to reality, baby

and i must say,

i'm handling reality quite well

no thoughts about suicide yet

but maybe by next year... (KIDDING!!! u noe me. i love life too much :D)



today was the celebration for teacher's day

i like the item put up by the 202 chiminals '03

interesting

and the dedications

yea

those were funny

especially the part about mr osgodby

"...what's so shocking??..."

or something like that lah



the food delight

i never really saw what the teachers had been given to eat

this year i couldn't care less

i got mixed reactions about my meringue

some people say it's too sweet (hazwani even gagged! i felt so sad!)

but some people liked it

i saw someone trying to run away with the whole tupperware

and i saw someone who actually did run away with it

hahah

syahir, syahir...

hahah

he even ordered 100 pieces from me

costs $20.00/-

heheh

by friday

anybody else wanna order, just give me a holler:)



anyway, the horoscope thing

in school, about the teachers,

were interesting

but sagittarius was said to be over-confident

i mean, come on

me, over-confident??

hahah...

sometimes i think i have too little self-esteem

but i can be over-confident lah

but only when i'm doing something i'm very good at, lah

like...um...

i dun think there's anything i'm particularly good at...

oh well... hahah



i think i'm giving up

don't ask me why

the odds are against me

the stakes are too high



it's too far away

too much out of reach

he belongs to someone else

to some other BITCH! (again, KIDDING!!!

i don't harbour any ill feeling towards either of them. REALLY.)



hahah

i just love to joke, don't I?

<3feeena>

Sagittarius

November 21 to December 20



Primary Characteristics



* Affectionate

* Honest



Positive Personality Traits



* Honest and straightforward

* Intellectual and philosophical

* Jovial and good-humored

* Optimistic and freedom-loving



Dangers



* Can be blindly optimistic and careless

* May be irresponsible and superficial

* May become restless

* Sometimes tactless

obs

i love obs!!!

u noe, i like things i'm good at
and this camp, i found some things i'm good at
so i like them
and liking these things
have made me LOVE OBS!!!
wat a theory!

heheh
but really
i remember back in spark-c, i hated rock-climbing
because i barely made it to the middle of the rock wall
but this time
i made it up to the top
and quite fast, too :)
i love rock-climbing!

and i love kayaking!!!
same situation, too
i can go at a moderate speed
i love it!!

and i love my watch!!
nice people!!
great people!
nobody aksyen inside!!
hahah... that was my main worry


there were quite a few incidents in obs that are very memorable
such as the sea expedition
we were delayed for two hours
set off late because of cat 1 weather (category 1: lightning risk, so on)
when we did leave camp 3, it was drizzling abit
current was quite strong ( itwas strong all the way)
(and raining all the way)

had our lunch only one hour behind schedule
and made it back, washed and kept the boats,
retrieved the bags
all on time
yea, so i'm pretty proud about that
hehe

and the night before that was blissful (discounting all the mosquitos)
we had sentry duty at night to watch the kayaks
all i did was go out to the gate to the beach at the designated time
sat down on a poncho laid on the ground
relaxed under the stars
looked at the bright lights across the channel at johor
listened to the music coming from there (quite loud also leh)
and thought about life
my philosophies
how i'm living it
how to make it better
how to make me better as a person

wow
so philosophical
hahah
but some friends say i think alot
which i do
especially when i'm really quiet and staring off into space
hahah

anyway
one of the perks of obs was missing school
the other was being around friends for a week
third was being around someone for a week
ahahah
what an added benefit

but of course, all these great bonuses don't come without a disadvantage
i finally knew
who he was with
and that started me thinking
(again)
what am i doing?
waiting around?
i don't need no man to keep me happy
which made me think of a song
cinderella by tata young

:: When I was just a little girl

My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story

It always was about a Princess in distress

And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be

Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

I don't wanna be like Cinderella

Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar

Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free

I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting

For a handsome prince to come and save me

On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side

Don't want to depend on no-one else

I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind

Who's not afraid to show that he loves me

Somebody who will understand

I'm happy just the way I am

Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him

just as strong

as he will be there for me

When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

I can slay

my own dragon

I can dream

my own dreams

My knight in shining armour is me

So I'm gonna set me free ::

quite meaningful lyrics, aye?
heheh

i am woman, hear me roar
<3 feeena

camp

i'm still undergoing preparations for camp... so scared!!!

but it's a good scared... it's like, more nervous, actually...
what if i forget to bring something really important?
like... like... underwear!!!
or... maybe... clothes!!!

inspire... expire... inspire... expire...

ok, calmed down... but i'm still kinda nervous

i don't really know who's in my watch
except rai (or hana, as i call her)
stephanie
hafizah
this gal named si hui or sth
and another chinese gal i dunnoe

but i'm determined to forge ahead
looking for new adventures
and friends

hahah... sounds like something johnny quest would say

i'm bringing 6 tee shirts... didn't think 4 wld be enough
+ 1 long sleeved
+ sleeves (black)
+ 3 long pants (as stated)
+ a whole bunch of other stuff you don't need to know

the only thing i haven't bought is the solid fuel tablets
don't really know where to find them...
searched jurong point yesterday for sarah and irna's stuff
then went to the neighbourhood shops to look for my fuel thingie
all the shopkeepers asked had absoluely no idea what it was

haiz... aniwayy
did u hear? we're supposed to go to school wearing pe shorts
but i'm not gonna do that
i'll wear a skirt
then keep it in my locker

whoo... can't wait for camp
heehee :)

<3 feeena

shop, shop, shop, merajukk!!!

heyy all

went shopping todae
i like to shop
retail therapy
and nice stuff to see

aaniway, i went shopping for my camp stuff
bought the sticker mosquito repellent
nice
i'm wearing it right now
kinda smells, but it's not that strong nor unpleasant

and i bought this roll-on thingie that's supposed to help me not sweat.
i've been meaning to buy it for months
and i've finally bought it
all for the sake of camping, of course.
i don't want to be hot and sweaty and smell there.
not where there'd be almost everybody from sec 3 there.

aand, i bought sun block!
we actually have anpther bottle at home.
but this one's better
this one is spf 130!
the one we have is only spf 30
so i managed to coerce my parents into buying it.

you know, i've managed to coerce people into doing alot of things.
goes with my personality, i guess.
being an IS and all.

but, my shopping trips with my parents usually end with either me or my sister sulking
i know, i know.
what brats.
heheh
it comes with being the youger two girls.
the only two girls, in fact.
but i've stopped this years ago.
this time, my sister sulked.
about not being allowed to buy a dryfast tee.
i wanted one too.
tried to persuade my parents into buying me at least one.
didn't manage it, so i stopped there.

can't wait for camp.
no school for one week

no teevee for one week

no home work for one week

no radio for one week

no parents for one week

no parents for one week

i guess i am going to miss my parents
i am, what they call, manja
i guess that's quite obvious.
what other parents would go all the way to kallang theatre
just to send a ticket which their child has forgotten?
quite a few.
but because my parents were willing to do that
i'm grateful
luv u, mama and abah


feeena

to not breathe

you know, sometimes i find it easy just to stop breathing...
life seems to be on a standstill
it just comes naturally
sometimes, i stop breathing without even knowing it; and only when i absolutely need air do i start breathing again
you should try it sometime
it's relaxing
it makes you focus more on what is important in life
don't ask me how it helps
it just does

there. i just did it again
sometimes breathing is such hard work
i find it easier to not breathe

and when i die, i wld have already gotten used to not breathing

*fin`land