my cousins are in australia now
i'm gonna miss them sooo much
especially when raya come along and only two families will be raya-ing together

we sent them off at the airport just this morning
feels like a lifetime ago
yesterday
the whole lot of cousins and i slept together for the last time at my aunt's house
watched the ring
and went to the airport together in the morning

a whole lot of photo-taking took place
a whole lot of tears were spilled
unfortunately, none were mine

am i so unfeeling?
i dunnoe..
i think i have a problem expressing feelings
granted, i did cry alot in the car
and at home
I'M GONNA MISS THEM!!!
:'(

so sad...
well, i'm gonna see them next year anyway..
hahah
dream on....
but, who knows. dreams can come true

wait for mee.... i'm coming!....

heheee



two words: m.a.r.s. a.t.t.a.c.k.

i finally know what my kind of guy is my type

after carefully analyzing all of my crushes, celebrity and all,
i have finally pinpointed all the criterias that are similar in most, if not all, of these men

firstly:
they are usually taller than me
of course they are. i'm pretty short
anyways...

secondly:
they have long faces
usually
not all have that
but it's apparent, especially in bounce up and damian lewis

thirdly:
neat, not-long hair
seriously
i don't like long hair in men
they irk me
such a turn-off

fourthly:
smiley
i like men who like to smile
smile are nice
and so attractive
i don't really like the pouty, broody, moody kind of guy

fifth:
lean-muscled
i don't really like the all-so-bulging muscles on anybody
looks like a pin can pop them anytime
instead, i like long, lean muscles
well-defined is the way to go

p.s. i don't like bounce down any more
it happened so suddenly
hahah
i'm free....

you now, i've never been much of a crier
yea, i cry when i watch movies and drama and documentaries and all that
but i can't truly cry
i try to
i want to cry
i want to scream
but i can't
it's like i'm emotionally paralysed
an emotion pariah
emotion doesn't come to me easily

but there are other ways to get rid of all that pent up frustration
i hit stuff
i take a huge wooden ruler
and hit my bed
of all targets, i hit my bed
cos it won't get me in trouble
it's nearly as satisfying as screaming anyway

you know,
time... it doesn't stand still
people say time flew by so fast or
too slow
but it doesn't
it just goes on ticking
tick-tock, tick-tock
even now seconds are going by
you just have to be patient
sharp
and watch where time is taking you
or you might just be left behind

**+*+**+*+**+*+**+*+**+*+**+*+**+*+**+*+**+*+**+*+**

my last paper tomorrow
boy, i just can't wait
after that, i'm gonna go raid the library
and see what i can come up with
maybe i'll come across a gem
but i'm not keeping my hopes up
i've read too many books
i've no more options in the library
or at least, none in the library
i guess i have to go to emf or sth

i've been through many phases throughout my life
i remember when i went crazy over hugh jackman, brad pitt, damian lewis
( this really cute guy in band of brothers who has permanent wrinkles at the sides of his mouth from smiling) (looks like bounce up!)

and now, to present my latest celeb crush
*drumroll*
jason mraz!
yes! mr. az himself
i dunnoe
i saw geek in the pink
and i just fell in love!
hahah

what i liked about him in that video
was that i saw him without a cap for the first time!
and saw him interacting with people
and acting stupid
but cute stupid
and he smiled alot
[smiles are important to me, y'know]
and he boogied like saturday night fever
and he's just so cute!
and, putting that together with his voice
which sounds so cute,
you get my celeb crush!

hahah
anyway, he's like all the rest of the cute "slengeh"s
like adam brody, frankie muniz,
you know, that kind of breed

a totally different breed of hotties
who do not have to act cool
and are so wacky
but can still stay cute

aaahhh....
anyway, arsenal has another resident cutie
other than thierry henry, of course
[don't worry thierry, you're still no. 1!]
his name is robin van persie
he's 23
and way cuter than cristiano ronaldo
who has a thick neck
haha

i'm in the midst of mid-year exams
but as yet i have no sense of urgency to study
even now i'm supposed to be studying history
oh well
i'll start later...
way, way later...

today was the full literature paper
and it was okay! hahah
i feel so free now
not that i was laden with lit work over the weekend
i started studying only yesterday!
i'm so slack

yesterday's episode of desperate housewives
(which i watched this morning)
was so intriguing
especially when whats-his-name,
susan(whom i dislike)'s ex-husband,
defended bree
oh! the stuff of fairytales
a (maybe) handsome knight defending a defenseless damsel
against her fire-breathing bastard

anyway, i shoulda read my twelfth night book a long time ago
not that i don't read it,
but the teacher akways skips to the part that he/she deems relevant
that i missed what is now my favourite quote
ohwell

::O world, how apt the poor are to be proud. If one should be prey, how much the better to fall before the lion than the wolf.::