you now, i've never been much of a crier
yea, i cry when i watch movies and drama and documentaries and all that
but i can't truly cry
i try to
i want to cry
i want to scream
but i can't
it's like i'm emotionally paralysed
an emotion pariah
emotion doesn't come to me easily

but there are other ways to get rid of all that pent up frustration
i hit stuff
i take a huge wooden ruler
and hit my bed
of all targets, i hit my bed
cos it won't get me in trouble
it's nearly as satisfying as screaming anyway