this morning, i woke up feeling miserable
the job at kfc seemed really daunting
all the codes and procedures and you have to be polite while typing everything down?
i didn't think i could do it

today, i'm not going for the third day of the orientation
in fact, i'm quitting
the person said don't give up like your colleague
i don't want to disappoint the supervisor
but it's better her than the customers

cos i'm sure to bungle up the whole job anyway
anyway, i'm not exactly giving up
i'm just leaving this job for a better one
yup!

this morning, a phone call came for me
like a ray of light shining down from heaven on a dark, rainy day
(yup, it's still raining)
so i'm going there on monday
and if all goes well on monday, then i start immediately on monday
no jeans or sneakers, only officewear

i'm so excited!
i've been praying about this since... forever!
and now, alhamdulillah, here's a golden opportunity
and i hope i make the most of it

yesterday was a really crazy day though
after the four hour course at the kfc place
it was raining, not heavily at first
and we(syaz, inessa and i)'d gotten free zingers
being hungry, we just decided that, sod sanity, we'll just eat whilst walking in the rain

so there we were, three crazy looking, drenched, teenagers,
walking in the rain, eating burgers
luckily, my hand is big, and covered most of the burger
so my burger didn't really get that wet
and i used the box to cover it between bites
so it's fine

we even opted to walk in the rain even though we were right beside a shelter
and by then, the rain was really heavy
but we trudged on
hahah

it was really fun
and liberating
it was like we were free from propriety
and were doing what is natural- eating in the rain

this post will be a really long one
cos i will be narrating my dream from this morning
just for the sake of it

anyway, there's this girl
who was me, but younger
and i'm like, the daughter of this guy who's an inventor and really interested in basketball
i dunno why, dun ask me

anyway, for some reason, the people of this small town don't like me
i was somehow a freak for being smart and good at basketball at the same time
after this town event, where i'm shunned again
and there's this boy
who's like the town's coolest boy
but he treats me like a friend

we hugged (innocently, i'm still a kid in this one)
and i don't know what to say
all i'm doing is staring at this poster behind him
and suddenly it snows!
my first time experiencing real snow
(in other dreams, my snow was fake, made by this machine on top of a building)
and it's really nice and soft and magical

then out of nowhere, a hot air balloon comes floating into town
and floats down in front of me
and i jump inside
without thinking anything except, this is a good opportunity

and i have two friends with me
( did i mention i'm ang moh in this one? so nobody in this dream resembles anyone i know)
one made it inside
when i was adjusting the flame, making it bigger so it could carry us up
the hot air balloon suddenly floated up while another, bigger friend (??about my brother's size??) was trying to come in with a bag loaded with supplies
so she's left up down there while we're floating

then i lower the flame so the balloon floats back down
and she gets in with the heavy bag
but now the balloon won't budge
the balloon part of the hot air balloon starts drifting down before i get the chance to really increase the flame
and when i do that, the balloon catches fire
and as i'm looking up at the burning balloon, my dreams fly away

we evacuate the balloon, while the snow and wind takes care of extinguishing the balloon
but it doesn't end on that bad note
no, cos there's an epilogue

here it is:
like, after that event, maybe a few months or years
all i remember is that i'm older
i'm in my home's indoor basketball court

and my dad's giving me pointers while i'm scoring
but guess who's with me?
it's the cool cute guy
and he's there with me
and i remember feeling happier in that part of my dream than before

so the moral of this story/ dream is:
if for some reason, you missed an opportunity due to external factors, like god's will,
there's probably a reason, you know
like in this dream, it turned out not everyone in town wanted me gone
i actually still had a reason to stay
so missing the opportunity to run away and gain happiness from a hostile town
gave me the chance to connect with the person who wanted me to stay
and who gave me a reason to stay,
and i felt happy, a different kind of happy from if i had run away, but happy, nonetheless


BUT
this does not give you an excuse to miss opportunities
it just makes you feel better about missing them if it wasn't your will to miss them


so, go on, take that opportunity
it might just be the perfect thing for you